I Feel Whole

These were the words of a SomaSoul client

I was working with recently,

“I feel whole.”

Why? How? You might be wondering.

My client has a young teenage daughter. As her daughter grows and changes, she’s asking her mom about her own adolescence.

Memories of trauma are bubbling up for my client.

Some of these memories have surfaced before, but this time my client was looking through a different lens.

She saw herself in her daughter, young and innocent. And her yearning to offer her daughter the protection she never had is powerful.

My client was moving between two personas, the traumatized teenager and the protective mother.

“Would your daughter be able to protect herself in a dangerous situation like the one you experienced?” I asked her.

“No” was her response.

In that moment, she looked at me and said,

“It wasn’t my fault.”

“No it wasn’t,” I replied.

“You needed an adult to protect you.”

The shame that has held these memories in an untouchable cage for my client began to melt away.

“I feel proud of my young teenage girl,” she shared.

“She did her best to survive.”

She began to welcome and embrace her teenage self rather than reject her, for the first time.

 “In this moment I’m no longer a mess of broken parts,” she said,

“I feel whole!”